An interview with Lydia Howe: Everything you need to know plus more!

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Hey all! I’ve been lucky enough to be able to interview the fantastic Lydia Howe on her debut novel, Where Dandelions Grow, and here are her answers. I can’t wait to see where she’ll go next in her journey as a writer and wish her the best of luck with her book. Such exciting times! 😊

You can find links to the book below**

1. Were there any specific events that prompted you to start working on ‘Where Dandelions Grow’ and if so, tell us about it!
 
My cousins and I were really close growing up, and when we started hitting milestones – such as high school graduations – I realized life was going to be changing a lot. I wanted to celebrate/commemorate our bond somehow, and a book seemed like the perfect way. 
 
2. Any quirky writerly habits we should know about? 
 
Quirky writer describes me quite well. For some odd reason I pretty much have to have something in my mouth in order to concentrate while writing. (As I type this I have my headphone cord in my mouth – a habit I do not recommend.) I have a feeling this is why bygone generations always chewed on pencils while being author-ly. I’m also a rather active writer which means I don’t do much writing in public. This past week I was working in front of my sister and she later described me this way: “Lydia makes weird noises as she flies with her arms while sitting at the table all day.” And, that pretty much sums up what I look like…. 
 
3.For you, what is the best part of being a writer? Was it a dream you’ve always had or is it something you just woke up thinking about one day?
 
I joke that the best part about writing is getting to listen to music as I work. But, in reality my real favorite part is the privilege of sharing my thoughts, stories, and ideas with others. 
 
Being a writer is a dream I’ve had ever since I was a little girl and listened to my oldest sister tell amazing stories to me. 
 
4. Through the process of publishing and releasing your novel, and I’m sure, many other fantastic achievements, how would you say you’ve evolved creatively and as a person?
 
One of the big things I’ve discovered is that although I’m a creative person, continuing on with creativity as I grow up has most assuredly been a choice. Therefore, I’ve learned that I can’t take creativity for granted – instead I have to work to be creative and immerse myself in a creative environment each day. 
 
As for evolving as a person… Reading and writing a lot has helped me realize what things in life and relationships really bother me. So, I make it a point to try and notdevelop those habits and tendencies that aren’t productive and worthwhile, and instead work on developing traits that will make my life more helpful to those around me. 
 
5. Can you share some stories about people you’ve met while working on Where Dandelions Grow?
 
I had a great editor for Where Dandelions Grow. We actually ended up working together during a really hard time for me. I had Lyme disease for seven years and moved at a really slow pace and was often unreliable due to being too sick to meet deadlines. Having a patient editor who encouraged me to keep going, but not worry about what I couldn’t do, was incredible. My editor ended up not only helping me with the book, but also with keeping the correct perspective throughout my sickness. 
 
6. Give us a run through on your day to day working life- do you dedicate specific days to writing/ forming ideas or is it just based on what you’re feeling up to at that moment?
 
I don’t have any normal days right now. 🙂 I work part time for my family’s business (which is, thankfully, quite flexible), part time at a coffee shop (which is tons of fun), and part time on writing. That means each day looks quite different. I do try and set specific week or month goals for what I want to accomplish on the writing front, but even that sometimes changes partway through the month. 
 
7. Any golden nuggets of wisdom you have to share? Teach me something!
 
If you have a goal/dream worth pursuing, then go for it! Make sure you have a big enough “why” and then make a plan and hit it hard. 
 
8. What is the most unethical practice in the publishing industry?
 
Oh goodness. I’m really not qualified to even venture a guess on that one. Mostly, I’m just so thankful for the publishing industry so that we can have new books! 
 
9. Can you name an early experience when you realised language had power?
 
When I was eight and read a “big” chapter book for the first time (it was probably 250 pages). The book literally changed my mindset and habits as a little girl, and I decided if a story could have that big of an impact on me, then I should become an author, too. 
 
    Just some fun ones now!
 
10. What is the strangest name someone has ever introduced themselves as to you?
 
I don’t specifically recall…. I do have a habit of giving strange nicknames to friends though (and then introducing them to others using that nickname). The strangest nickname I’ve probably ever come up with is “Female Human of the Shrock Family Number Six.” 
 
11. Describe a time where something you can’t explain happened to you.
 
Hmmm… My brain is drawing a blank on this one…. 
 
12. Are you still learning who you are? Imagine you were somebody else. What is one word they’d use to describe you?
 
Ah yes, I think I’ll always be learning about who I am, because I’m constiantly changing and growing. My biggest desire is to grow to be more like Jesus, and that’s something I’ll always have to work on. 
 
One word to describe me? Probably unique
 
13. And last one! What’s your heritage and how do you include parts of it in your life?
 
I had the huge privilege and blessing of growing up in a big (ten kids) family, and we had a stay-at-home mom and were homeschooled. So, my immediate family heritage includes a lot of working together, being taught to work towards our dreams, family time, and exploring the world together. 
My more extended heritage includes German and Irish ancestry, and some relatives that (according to legend) came over on the Mayflower. I’d be delighted to visit Ireland some day.  
 
And that’s it. Thank you so much for allowing me to interview you 🙂 
 
Thank you for having me! 

About the author:

Lydia Howe (aka Aidyl Ewoh) is a twenty-something adventurous author who is partial to hiking in the mountains of Asia and South America, building life-size models of dinosaurs, taking road trips across Europe, visiting friends in Africa, growing up in a barn and everything in-between. She currently works in a coffee shop during the day and concocts stories by night. Find her online at her  BlogYoutubeFacebook,TwitterGoodreadsInstagram, and Google+ 

Want to grab a copy for yourself now? Great! Head to:

 Goodreads Link: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/35969327-where-dandelions-grow?from_search=true 

Millennial Pink Chocolate Now Exists And We Cannot Even

Omg omgggg another repost here we go! This is just awesome. Two words: cannot wait.

Chocolate hasn’t had many ~huge~ discoveries, not since white chocolate which was like 80 years ago…

Now, some very clever guys in Sweden have just introduced the fourth wonder of the chocolate world, Ruby chocolate.

“Ruby chocolate gets its reddish-pink hue from the Ruby cocoa bean and has a faint, but naturally-occurring taste that is not bitter, milky or sweet, but a tension between berry-fruitiness and luscious smoothness”, says the chocolate company Barry-Callebaut who invented the blend in a press release.

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There’s more good news, Diaz confirmed to Reuters that there is no colouring, berries or flavouring added to the new type of chocolate.

While there’s no official word on when this will be available to buy, the company hinted that it should be available worldwide soon.

This article originally appeared on InStyle

If I ever write a book+ a whole lot of unfortunate bookish mishaps best left unheard 🤦

If I ever write a book, I’ll have to pay my family and author and illustrator and the whole damn team extra.. you know, to compensate for all the weird scenarios that’ll somehow pour out onto the paper and will probably scar them for life. And the mountainous pile of drafts that will somehow materialise out of godknowswhere

**What an ugly sentence to start with !!

Sometimes it’s like my brain NEVER actually stops. 

I just googled ‘Do brains ever shut down’ and apparently it’s not something that normal humans ask because I still don’t fully know the answer and frustration!!!

Now is a great time for some yoga breathing, I guess.

**or not? maybe I should actually write something relevant to the title.. just maybe (;**

I know, I know, I am so totally on task. I can hear you all mentally applauding me for my efforts and it’s the best sound ever. 🤗

So yep, back to what I was saying. If you ever feel the need to just mind dump and cleverly disguise under the title of book, that’s good. That’s great! That’s fabulous! But sometimes you will find yourself in that horrible state of frustration where the doubt section of your mind is like, completely on overdrive and all you feel like doing is curling into a little writerly ball of stressed out particles. There there, you little part of the universe.

You’ll be okay. (says everybody ever and just shush 😂😂)

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And you know what happens then? On plops the cherry to your figurative cake!

I never said I made sense. You’re just meant to relate anyway. yeah, that IS how it is.

You like, have this idea. A c0mplete and utter lightbulb moment and you’re just pumped up and full of adrenaline and dopamine and all that good stuff and then your brain malfunctions. Does this sound familiar?

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AND THEN IT’S LIKE, EXCUSE ME, WHERE DID MY IDEAS GO? THIS IS NOT MEANT TO BE A ‘CLEAN SLATE’ MOMENT WHERE YOUR LIFE IS JUST KAPEESH, GONE LIKE THAT. THAT WAS NOT A MISTAKE, THAT WAS JUST RANDOM MOMENTS OF GOOD THINKING AND ALL WASTED WHY OH WHY

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Odd spot #102927727272: I’m loving the Disney gifs today.

Yeah no.

Tick those mental boxes people! Do you suffer from one or more of these common conditions? I bet you do.

a) procrastination (gets in too late. Does not rush to get things done even though there is need for rushing and then rushes when rushing is really needed) /precrastination (gets in too early. Rushes to get things done even though there is no rush.)

Odd spot #102927727273: Procrastinators are more  original thinkers. WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN 😁

b) temporarily loses access to mind memory and gets super triggered because it is not at all like losing your keys and is just worse, period. It is more like losing your keys but you need to get to work then you find your keys and then you car breaks down and your boss wants to meet for lunch to discuss your promotion but then you’re stuffed.

Haha, no Maryam.

That’s more like losing your memories and then recalling them and then losing them again except you had this really good idea that could change the world and make a giant positive mark on everything. How many good ideas and game changers have we lost to this beast?!

c) Weird moments when you have this line or thought that is just perfect but then it turns out somebody just like, knew that you had big plans and just got in ahead of you and then you just have to sit and cry into your cereal bowl at breakfast and even then mummy can’t save you.

So, it’s as easy as A. B, C. 123, abc, 123. Overcoming those mishaps. *we want answers, we want answers, we want answers* yes, start a chant  🤣🤣

 

I feel like that’s such a preschool song.

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To sum it up, prepare for writerly, b00kish failures.

It’s an inevitability of life. The sun will rise and the sun will set. Just like that, it will happen.

Yes, prepare to fail. Not because you’re no good, but because you will do better.

Know that you will get up, dust your pretty self off and face the world with extra skills as a better procrastinator, owner of countless awesome ideas and they’ll even be original.

We all hope, as people, to get things right that first time around, but that’s where we grow! We grow during the intervals and the quiet moments and the petty tragedies- we grow and we bloom until we are no longer a weed, but a flower. Such is the life of a creative. Always surprising.

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If we were having coffee..

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If we were having coffee.

hmm.

Apparently this is a trending post idea. Interesting.. I swear I’ve seen this just about nowhere, but alrighty, I’m slow to catch on.

Key word here is “if”.

I don’t really drink coffee, because it’s simply too caffeinated and I’m a human (no you’re not) who may be a vague insomniac and so that dreaded drink does me no favours. For now, all I can do is imagine myself as an old weary pineapple (bad mental picture but this is starting to get catchy), struggling to keep up with my work (I’ll be a freelance writer, Youtuber and interior designer) but ultimately coming out the other end all smiley and happy and with all them good ol’ vibes because I have my coffee!

Or I could enlist one of my minions to find me a time machine and travel back to weird day where I drank a lot of milky/sugary coffee and was like, a whole twelve years old. And also slept well that night, thank you.

But no!!

No!!

We won’t be having coffee. I’d take fictional other being to Starbucks (read: force) and I’d buy a chai latte. They’d offer to pay for coffee and I’d fake agree, savagely leaving them with the ‘coffee’ bill. I’d offer to buy cake and they’d refuse because they’re vaguely health nuttish and I’d laugh internally, because I have a savage side.

And then they’d start to talk, one word only obviously, because It’s nice to do some listening and being polite is just one of my best qualities. 😂

And then I’d rudely interrupt by blowing my nose loudly into a napkin because I love being grossly disturbing!

 

(This is turning into a nightmarish alternative reality situation, I think. Read on and I’ll give you a medal for bravery. Sorry, no refunds for lost brain cells.)

HAHAHAH, not really. I’d just verbally onslaught (fancy rantingggg) and they’d do that thing where you try and listen but you’re really just waiting for a gap in conversation and you’re not really listening because you’ve got a dumb dumb brain which can’t mentally multitask.

Anybody feel like I could’ve said that in one sentence?** VERBAL ONSLAUGHTS ARE LITT 😄

Anyway, I’d tell you the following things in approximately a hundred sentences (per thingy thingy):

  1. Just how much I love my blog baby and how I’ve clearly shown improvement in my design skills which are fabulously on point!

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2. Then I’d ramble on about school and the mountain of assignments that I’m forever trying to conquer. End of term, come at meee! 🤗

3. I’d tell you how I’m starting dancing classes, lyrical and musical theatre, but I’m probably enjoying the latter more since I’ve decided to start lyrical next year instead. Not enough time at the moment and I’m not used to having so much to do!

4. I’d tell you that I’m excited for the holidays and probably name a few things I hope to do. Way to state the obvious Maryam!

5. Who knows? Whatever interests me next. Maybe I’ll tell a story.. I tell good stories. Or order some cake and uh, forget to pay for it so they’ll do it for me. 😀

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Thinking of savagely roasting someone online? Your words/actions may be costly.

 ** totally not the real title, just saying 😝

Have You Ever Posted Anything Negative About Your School Or Work On Social Media?

 

If the answer is yes, you NEED to read this!- Team Girlfriend

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The whole point of Instagram, Snapchat, Facebook, and Twitter is being able to express yourself freely online, so that means you can’t get in trouble for what you post, right?

Sure, it’s not the best idea to tweet about how lame your teacher is, and it’s downright Mean Girls to leave nasty comments under someone’s selfie, but it’s not against the law, is it?

Er, actually sometimes it is.

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“You can get into a lot of trouble when it comes to social media use if you don’t understand the relevant laws around it,” says Susan McLean, the director at Cyber Safety Solutions.

Even if your social media accounts are private, you can still get fired for saying not-so great things about where you work.

“If you say anything that may ruin the good reputation of a workplace or school, then that organisation can discipline you,” Susan warns.

“There is no defense that the account was ‘private.’ There is no such thing as privacy online and everything you post, like, or share becomes public,” she explains, adding that teens under 18 can be sued for their comments and criminal charges can be pressed as well.

The best thing to do is obviously not say anything questionable on your socials about your school or workplace, but if you have a habit of posting your thoughts without always thinking things through, check your school or workplace’s guidelines to see exactly where they stand when it comes to social media.

Re-post from: https://www.girlfriend.com.au/article/life/negative-posts-about-school?category=Life

Because ain’t nobody got time to be accused of stealing 💁

Anyway, I invite you all to share savage internet related fails in the comments.. who can relate to this post sah muchhh? *me me me*

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The Awesome blogger award! 😝

The awesome blogger aware!

I am feeling happy today. Sorta like all the colours in the rainbow. I am the rainbow flag! No, that’s not me coming out. Don’t be weird. I am totally not being weird.

I swear, I enjoy these intros too much and I could say a lot more, believe me, but I’ll be nice and just thank my nominator: ENTER THE AWESOME HUMAN @ SHINAVYBLOGSPOT!!

(as you can probably tell, if I was saying this to you (like chatty talking speaking rambling hahahahhhah saying) then I would be using my super elated kiddy screaming joyful voice.

Maryam, you are making such good use of adjectives today! (as totally completely not usual)

In short: I appreciate you VERY MUCH. 😆

And we shall begin! (I am sorry for the complete spam of award posts I’ve been doing lately but I just loooove talking about myself.. looooove it.)

Here are the rules for the Awesome Blogger Award:
  1. Thank the person who nominated you.
  2. Include the reason behind the award.
  3. Include the banner in your post.
  4. Tag it under #awesomebloggeraward in the Reader.
  5. Answer the questions your nominator gave you.
  6. Nominate at least 5 awesome bloggers.
  7. Give your nominees 10 new questions to answer.
  8. Let your nominees know that they’ve been nominated!

HAHA, I JUST REALISED I DIDN’T EVEN READ THE RULES. HERE GOES NOTHING:

Maggie over at Dreaming of Guatemala actually created this award, it turns out.. I should do something like that too. QUIRKY BLOGGER AWARDDDDDD YUS YYSUSUSYYSYSYS…  

According to Maggie, “This is an award for the absolutely wonderful writers all across the blogging world. They have beautiful blogs, are kind and lovely, and always find a way to add happiness and laughter to the lives of their readers. That is what truly defines an awesome blogger.”

(Maggie, YOU are an awesome blogger.)

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And it’s finally question time! *jumps up and down crazily like someone just said the word ice cream or something*

  1. Describe your personality using three words!

I’d probably say powerful, quirky and non-conventional. These are all so fitting when it comes to moi! I wonder what others would think..

2. Do you like cooking? If so, what is your favourite thing to cook?

Yep, sure do! Cooking is fun. In fact, I have food tech this term and it’s the best ☺There’s plenty of time to complain about errrm, cooking and responsibilities later! I love making cheesecake especially. Seriously, God’s gift to the earth. Pure joy.. in cake.

3. Two of your favourite songs at the moment:

Easy! At the moment, I’m loving Broken Glass by Rachel Platten and What about us by P!nk. There’s such good music out recently and I’ll say it again but so many singers are having personal breakthroughs and releasing some really inspirational material, and I am totally here for it!

4. If you could be on any reality/tv show, what would it be and why?

I don’t know about a reality TV show, but put me on Pretty Little Liars and I’ll have the time of my life. 😂😂 I’m currently watching the series for the first time in my damn life (what was I doing with my time oml?!) and I am so rapt up in the characters and the whole drama/mystery. I’ll just try not to die in the process. All good!

5. One of your pet peeves is..?

Ooh, pet peeves. I hate when you tell somebody a story or send a long text and they give you a really dumb answer like “k” or “kk” or “okay” which all mean the same thing, mind you. It’s like MY BLOOD IS BOILING WITH THE ANGER I FEEL FOR YOU DO NOT DO NOT DO NOOOOT DO THIS TO ME.

#rantover

6. What is your favourite comfort food?

Oh dear, I don’t know! Actually, maybe churros. They are the warmest and sweetest and best thing ever and again, if you don’t even know what I’m talking about, you’re missing out.. especially on cold days. Ahh, food for the soul. 😂😊

7. Your favourite hobby?

Maybe doodling. This is something that anyone who truly knows me or has been in my class can confirm. Today’s doodle was in English class: talking dinosaurs and yelling dinosuars and cross mum dinosaurs. Whatta scene.

8. What country are you from?

I am affectionately known as a ‘multipack’ by my parents, which is just a fancy way of saying that I am of mixed heritage. Half Pakistani, half Maltese!

9. If there is one skill you could master, what would it be?

Ahh, probably the art of being a fantastic speaker. I think it’s a really good skill to have and if you can perfect it.. you’re on the right track. I’m bound to be doing a whole lot of speeches in my life and building skills like these are vital. 💁

10. What’s your favourite beverage?

I don’t really drink soft drinks or anything but I do like the Bundaberg drink variety. They have lots of yummy flavours but are a bit on the pricey side.

We are da-da-da done! (almost >”<)

Not too many nominations for today but I’ll choose five because I ain’t no rule breaker, mate!

Starling, the mountains are calling, Kally, Lily the Lost Girl and Day Dreamer Teen.

And I’ve got a few questions:

1. What is your best childhood memory?

2. What do you feel most proud of?

3. If you could only keep five possessions, what would they be?

4. What is one of your most defining moments in life so far?

5. Name something you hate with a passion.

6. What is your strongest personal quality?

7. What are you most afraid of?

8. If you were president, what would the first thing you do be?

9. What age do you feel right now and why?

10. If you could witness any event of the past, present or future, what would it be?

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Congrats to all my nominees and a lovely day to all! 

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To the bone: raw and unfiltered please

Ellen is an unruly 20-year-old anorexic girl who spent the better part of her teenage years being shepherded through various recovery programs, only to find herself several pounds lighter every time. Determined to find a solution, her dysfunctional family agrees to send her to a group home for youths, which is led by a non-traditional doctor. Surprised by the unusual rules, Ellen must discover for herself how to confront her addiction and attempt self-acceptance.

Two minutes in and this movie is making me nervous. Apparently, it’s meant to be a comedy/drama film (see below), but it’s difficult to get past the ultra skinny babes who can’t have their cake and eat it too. 

I’m honestly feeling triggered, and damn sad for Lily Collins.

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According to more than one source, this is a movie to avoid. Insensitive, innacurate, dangerous and meaningless.

Need I go on? I’m two minutes in and it occurs to me that I should write a review. Let’s see what happens.

One minute later, and I feel terrible. I can hear weird moaning noises, but it turns out that she’s just exercising and it’s painful. I feel terrible. Ah, let’s see. Calorie aspergers? If I’m not mistaken, that’s a totally stupid + offensive thing to say. Oh, and the calorie memorisation? That’s habitual. I’m sure Lily Collins doesn’t need the trigger, but all for a movie, aye?

Nonetheless, I’m still watching.. three minutes in.

8 minutes in and she’s getting weighed. This reminds me of something.

“Jesus, do you think this is beautiful?” “No.”

You look like absolute crap! Every time I ask you why you do this, you give me some non-answer..

I’VE GOT IT UNDER CONTROL. (IT’S GOT ME UNDER CONTROL)

I bet some of them who were about to die said the same thing. *silence* 

I wonder why Lily Collins, former anorexic/bulimic would do this- play a role where it looks like she’s back to phase one. Healing? she says it’s what her former 16 year old self would’ve wanted to see.

I still can’t get over how sick and well, d e a d  she looks. I couldn’t do that- play a role where I was embodying something I’d spent so long running away from.

So far, I’m feeling that most reviews have been unfair.. It’s pretty authentic. She’s at the clinic now, and there’s another girl there. She looks like me. Yes, hit those stereotypes out of the field. They’re not welcome.

She’s just been allowed to go to the bathroom alone. I don’t think that’s allowed.

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I respect Collins a great deal for this. Going to hell and back and still coming out the other end. Some people are watching this for the wrong reasons. It’s not a bad film. Don’t watch it for the wrong reasons. I honestly don’t think it’s romanticising Anorexia, just like I don’t think 13 Reasons Why romanticised suicide.

Find the lie and replace it with the truth.

“I treat kids like you all day every day. I know you’re full of shit and you’re not skinny and you scare people and I know you like that.”

This whole drama is surprisingly funny actually. ‘Ellen’ just made a joke, and it was everythingggg

I don’t think this was meant to be sad. Think new beginnings.. happy.

Okay, seriously? You took her plate and she didn’t eat anything. I feel like if this was real life right now, they’d be force feeding her.

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Oh my god. Stepmother Susan.. you are not for real! I can’t even imagine what I’d do in this situation. This is just completely and utterly unhelpful and also very triggering. EAT UP ELLEN!

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It’s a piece of cake. Literally (not). 

Hi, I’m Lucas. Like mucus. 

**when you realise that you’ve probably stopped the moment 1262635257272736366363 times just so you can vomit a whole lot of words out onto a page**

*Please don’t take the vomit part the wrong way.**

I just rant sometimes and need to get all the words out of my brain or it’ll fizzle up and die.

“some of these girls are c u t t e r s?..”

The judgement in Stepmother Susan’s voice makes me wonder what life is anymore. Why, just why?

The rexy olympics

What sort of a term is that?  =/

“Be good. Not too good. Perfect..” I don’t know why, but this line makes me sad. Maybe it’s because perfectionism breeds a weird sort of hate in a person and I know this firsthand.

*22 minutes in and I obviously feel strongly about this film or I wouldn’t have rambled on for two hours**

HAAH! Lucas mucus calles therapy ‘B#!ch and Bull”

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“This is the torture chamber.. also known as the dining room..”

“Priviliges.. earn points, you get to go out on your own. I’m planning my next trip out actually. So far I’ve eaten at nine out of the hundred places I’ve wanted to go.”

Uhh, what happened to not talking about food because It’s boring and I don’t need to know?

I got tubed today, and it hurt. I got all hot and I couldn’t stop thinking about how many calories was in that drip.” 

“1500. I googled that.” there.

It’s not about thin enough, there’s no thin enough. 

Ellen looks a bit horrified at this point. ‘Fat girl’ next to her is eating peanut butter by the tub. I’m vaguely unnerved by this display of courage. I don’t eat peanut butter by the tub.

Now they’re praying to Jesus- laughing yet Daniel? It’s a heartfelt prayer but the cringe factor is just very there.

It’s the next scene and Ellen’s family is in for a group session.. practically abandoned her daughter and now she’s all over her like some feisty monkey.

“You look like a ghost!” Yeah, hi mom. **For the sake of this film, I’m now american okay

(okay, you’ve probably worked out by now that this is a literal second to second review of the film. No statistics, nothing sappy, just you, me and my unfiltered words. It is never my intent to cause offence. This is an official disclaimer. )

Okay, Ellen has three MOMS. THREE! That’s means a lot of chores and whatnot.

“I’m sorry that I’m not a person anymore, I’m a problem.. and it’s all my fault.”

Blame has no place here. Who do YOU want to be?

” I feel angry. It’s like, just eat. And it’s not just her life she’s missing out on, it’s mine. I was robbed of having a sister. When I look at my prom pictures, all I think of is ‘this is when Ellen fainted’ or ‘This is when Ellen was in the hospital’. All my friends think she’s some sort of freak who killed a girl and now what’s worse is that people want to be like her and look like her and go through what she’s going through’

You weren’t responsible for her death. Your drawings.. she sent you the letter. It wasn’t your fault.

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Miracle potatoes.. every  b i t e  feeds the miracle.

They’ve got a boy anorexic. He was once a dancer with dreams. He’s weird in a funny good way. He looks like you Daniel. 😄

i am weird;

How do you do it, eat, I mean? Don’t you feel all panicky, like the world’s going to end? I do, but I push through anyway. I’m not going to be one of those guys that has to be lifted out of bed with a crane.’

and we’re back to calorie aspergers again and I don’t like it one bit. aghansbdbdd

this film is raw in a way that I can’t quite describe

it looks like reality and its a scary one

even when they say things like

pretty soon you’re gonna be flopping around here like a boneless fish. 

somebody wise once said “Find the lie and replace it with the truth”.

What is YOUR lie saying?

Renew yourself. live a bit. love a little.

repeat.

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