Once again we are approaching a new week- I look forward to this time ahead with new eyes and an open heart and mind. In the days to come I hope to be a vessel for the ultimate good and to encourage others in furthering their belief in the Father. May we all walk in the light and reap the blessings of the positive actions we put back out into the world. In the words of the sweet Hailey Madison from Sunshine and Rain, it’s an opportunity for a fresh start and holds the promise of many things I’ve never seen before. Put beautifully and in such a way that really resonated with me!
This past week felt full of challenge and at times, I believe I was blinded by adversity. I couldn’t see that God was working through me the whole time, planting in my head thoughts for me to follow, expand upon and reevaluate my life with. It’s an interesting place to be in when you find yourself changing so profoundly yet again. You start to question all that, up until this very moment in time, had been solidified and presented to you as truth. When your foundation of being crumbles, how do you hold yourself up?
All that I’d worked for and all that I have didn’t feel like it was enough. Never before have I felt so insecure or uncertain about my work, my relationships and the path I’ve paved. As the saying goes, when you hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up. I had to have those difficult conversations, both with myself and others in the name of growth. I couldn’t stifle the feelings that were arising within me, even if they didn’t represent truth or particularly further my cause. I had to first acknowledge them and then begin the process of moving through it. What played on my mind quite heavily was the relationship between my partner and I. We’ve made leaps and bounds in the almost two years we’ve been together and are genuinely quite well matched. We are stronger, more faithful and better off in each other’s presence. For me though, personally, I had gotten caught up in how realistic it was that we are together. I started to wonder where we’d be in a couple of years time when the reality is that it doesn’t matter. The only time we have to work with is the present. I should’ve focused on positively influencing and contributing to our future together rather than acting irrationally and out of fear.
The end of the week did provide some reprieve for me however. It’s with a grateful heart that I can say my community of friends and beautiful readers has grown to include a staggering nine hundred and eleven of you! I couldn’t be happier that so many people choose to include me in their day through reading my many musings. Thank you for making my little corner of the internet such a happy place and for continuing to support me in my efforts to create meaningful content.
Last weekend I made an effort to indulge myself in more mindful hobbies. I felt I needed a break from the intensity of the earlier part of the week so took plenty of time offline. I dug out my Paris colouring book and Derwent pencils and enjoyed a couple of hours filling the Parisian landscape with a multitude of vibrant colours. Then, I read the latest issue of Teen Breathe. I’d stopped picking up their magazines for a while but recently decided I missed the content and wanted to give it another try. It proved to be an easy going yet engaging read. One of the articles, Golden Seams, actually inspired a post I have scheduled for later on this week. It really goes to show that diversifying your sources of inspiration can be a gamechanger, really taking your content creation to a whole new level. Other than this, I spent a good while on my phone glow up- I hadn’t thought about its’ design before and had only organised my apps into categories. With the launch of new ios14 software for apple users, I decided it was time for a change. I downloaded the necessary apps, widgetsmith + shortcuts and then changed the layout entirely. I found cute pinterest covers for my apps, added quotes to my home screen pages, a few pictures I enjoy seeing and a big calendar with the date and time. I also added a step counter and a daily log to keep track of my plans. If you haven’t yet updated your iPhone and wish to, I suggest you check out Julia K Crist’s latest video! She goes through it all in detail.
A few other highlights from my weekend were getting ice cream from Gelato Messina with my mum and grandma- I chose the waffle cone flavour and it had these delicious chunks of honeycomb in it! If I’m being honest though, I’m definitely more of a savoury gal. For lunch we’d tried out a new takeaway restaurant, Greek Gyros, that I’d seen on Deliveroo and thought looked good. The food was clean tasting, wholesome and pretty authentic too. It was filling and the portion sizes generous. It’s fair to say that I ate a lot of good food this weekend. On Saturday we’d all gone out for a picnic at Parramatta Park. I dressed up a little bit, enjoyed the sun and tried majority of the spread we’d packed. We had a roast chicken, brioche buns, a greek salad, pringles, muffins, rocky road, cheesecake and tea to go with. It was the most perfect day- I just sat on our picnic rug after we’d finished eating and my grandma and I listened to hits from Abba, The Jackson 5 and Blondie.
I don’t have any real expectations for this week but I’m hoping for lots of time to myself. Next week I’ll be on term break so will likely spend the next couple of days tying up loose ends school wise and finishing off any last minute work.