Today I’ll be sharing the goals I’ve mentally committed to reaching throughout this upcoming year and hope to see come to fruition! A helpful practice I began over the last twelve months was setting an intention and focus word to serve me throughout the year and sit ever present in my mind as I think, act and continue to just be. In this way, it becomes a powerful tool for focus, navigation of circumstances, the guiding of your attention and the ultimate shaping of the execution of your goals. It’s had such a powerful impact in my life that I now consider it a ritual for this time of year. The beauty of a focus word is that it’s not just a simple reference to what you’re doing. More often, it’s about a transformative way of being. It has the ability to guide your thinking and, through that, your actions. It will recur in your mind as a timely reminder of where you should direct your attention and to what may warrant it. You will learn about what requires you to show up in your life, but, most importantly, what you wish to do that for.
Keeping this word in mind won’t mean that you’ll develop a hardcore fixation on nothing but. Think of it as a gentle guide, a hand to pat your back and provide you with the encouragement you’ll need to persevere. When you slip, you’ll be prompted to think about how better you could address a situation should it arise again. You’ll find yourself centred and brought back to intention. Let your focus word be the foundation on which you build yourself up. Don’t be afraid to dig deeper into the juicy depths of all you wish to be and have. This word needs only be meaningful to you. Don’t feel pressured to share it with others if you believe the magic may be taken away. Just as with birthday wishes, some knowledge is more special when it is kept intimate.
Now, you may be wondering- why set a single word when you could have an array? You need not stick to a certain number or feel that you’re limited in any way. Choosing one word is more difficult than choosing several, but, ultimately, has greater impact. This way, you won’t need to move between them and spread your resources thin. Think about how you naturally tend to manage things and integrate them into your life. However, a single word will often have several partner words to go along with it. In this way, you’ll naturally have a few that are similar come to mind. Finding that cluster of related words will give you the depth of meaning you so crave and hope for. From there, challenge yourself to land on one and be nourished on the daily through that. This being said, there is no one way. I invite you to explore this notion and do what feels right.
Without further ado, here are my goals for Twenty Twenty One, alongside my focus word for the year, determination.
It is the size of one’s will that determines success. Only through focus can you do world class things, no matter how capable you are. Perfectly said, if you ask me. When I think of the ambitious endeavours I hope to carry out this upcoming year, the biblical verses from Isaiah forty three spring to mind and instill in me humble values. This is new terrain- that much goes without saying. I don’t think I’ve ever pushed myself so far before. In recent years, my energy was directed towards building myself back up again after taking one hit after another. This time, I’m solidifying the person I am and breaking out of all that is comfortable, easy and known to me. At one time familiar surroundings brought me comfort but now I feel stifled. My potential is choked by ordinary matters. All the time I spent climbing mountains was for nothing but the belief that I’d reach the pinnacle I now stand on, no matter the cost. It is a privileged position indeed because I see clearly now. There is a long journey ahead and the hard yards will be demanded of me without fail. This is what I’ve always wanted. To call the shots and live on my own terms. Now the buck stops with me. My journey and whether it is one of few or great steps, hinges on my perseverance. Now is the time to embrace doggedness, to be tenacious and hold onto what is mine with an iron grip. This is how I will move forward. I’d like to sum up this reflection with the serenity prayer. It’s beautiful but seems only to be used in an addicts anonymous group context. Let’s change that. God, give me grace to accept with serenity the things that cannot be changed, courage to change the things within my control, and the wisdom to distinguish the one from the other.
Thus says the Lord,
who makes a way in the sea,
a path in the mighty waters,
who brings forth chariot and horse,
army and warrior;
they lie down, they cannot rise,
they are extinguished, quenched like a wick:
Remember not the former things,
nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I am doing a new thing;
now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness
and rivers in the desert.
Reach a place of body acceptance
While I ultimately wish to be healed enough to embrace every perceived bodily imperfection and see myself through the same lens my loved ones do, I don’t want to discount the power of progress. There is more strength and power to be found in vulnerability. In admitting that what I am is perfectly fine- that I don’t need to change what I see in the mirror but that it’s okay if I wish to. I spent a long time feeling ashamed that I couldn’t come to terms with how I looked. At no point did I stop to dig deeper into these feelings and decipher them. I immediately rushed to what I thought was the root of the problem- my external self. I developed an Eating Disorder, Anorexia Nervosa with hints of Bulimia Nervosa, as a young teenager.
To this day, I can speak to what you hear about the condition being true. It is a physical manifestation of a mental battle, the war on worth, beauty, place and standing waged on two fronts. Only your mind never catches up with your body. You don’t see through the eyes of yourself but through the persona of Ana or Mia, your eating disorder in human form. The biggest irony was that returning to a state of wellness required me to do the very thing I was so afraid of- to eat. As painstaking as it was, I began to heal, slowly and then all at once. I no longer felt as if I’d become undone, led astray, left to be consumed by wolves. I pray everyday for those still lost in the forest because I know this particular heartbreak. I’ve met girls who’ve wished cancer on themselves because you lose your appetite and drop weight just like that.
As of today, I am doing so much better. I’m coming to terms with a more grown up version of my body. One with curves, extra weight, stretch marks, dips, dimples and disproportionality. I remind myself gently that I no longer look the fourteen year old vegetarian I once was, simply because I’ve evolved and shifted to be a different version of her. What I can do though is tone up, eat more mindfully, take care to not eat beyond my full point or out of boredom and follow a pattern of intermittent fasting where possible.
Explore healthy and effective communication further within my relationship
For those of you who are unaware, my partner and I are in a long distance relationship, him in America and myself in Australia. Us unconventional as it may be, we’ve mastered the art of consistent and effective communication. We are both night owls which makes interacting with each other less stressful as most hours of the day aren’t blocked out. He is a day behind while I am a day ahead. Until daylight savings ends this April, we enjoy an extra two hours of leeway. His ten in the evening is my five in the afternoon. We’ve just had our two year anniversary and couldn’t be happier. My partner and I don’t have the most romantic story in terms of us coming together and solidifying the relationship but I’ll explain this nonetheless. Perhaps it will encourage another person to be open and willing to understand the unexpected.
There was a chat site I used to frequent and had made some connections from. Occasionally they took off and I’d find a person I meshed with enough to continue the conversation for times to come. This had only happened once previously before I met my partner. It was with a long term friend who lived in Italy, whom I was close to for a good four years. The crazy thing was that I’d promised myself that night would be my last time on the chat site. My soon to be partner, on the other hand, had come online for the first time. He reached out and we spoke. I didn’t think much of it as I’m a more reserved sort. I hadn’t formulated any expectations of him yet.
As the days went by, I began to notice the ways in which he was different from other guys. We would facetime and have genuine conversations about philosophy, love, life, family, heartbreak and happiness. Whatever the case, he always found a way to weave in humour and positivity with a gentle sensitivity and tact. We dug into our past and gradually became comfortable with easing the burdens of past trauma. He took an interest in my family and began reaching out to them when possible. When he finally asked me to be his girlfriend, to give him a chance, my heart was his and had been for a while. It was that vow that made our bond unbreakable. My mess is yours, your mess is mine. In good times and in bad, I am yours and you are mine. This year I hope to be more present and intentional with him. To avoid distractions and becoming overly emotional when unexpected events occur. To not take our time for granted and to love fiercely and unconditionally. Most of all though, to turn our cameras on more often!
Pray more often, through good and bad times
I can’t pinpoint many times in my life that I’ve offered myself to a higher power in prayer, especially out of willingness and not fear, obligation or routine. When I was younger, I attempted here and there to learn namaz or salah, the five daily prayers a muslim follows. I attended an Islamic school from third grade until the beginning of high school, knowing full that well the religious exposure my dad hoped would rub off on me hadn’t made an ounce of difference. It was incredibly funny, when I think back. In sixth grade I’d taken on a leadership role as a prefect, one of my jobs being to watch over the girls in prayer and dictate where they should sit, report unruly behaviour and the like. I’d frequently sneak glances down the rows of scarfed girls, from head to toe in heavy dress, wanting to study their movements and emulate them in such a way that I looked as if my prayer was authentic. I may have been able to control my movements but knew nothing of what to speak.
In more recent years, I’ve prayed to an unknown God out of sheer desperation, reciting over and over again the verses I’d be taught from childhood. I prayed for my partner whom they weren’t sure would make it out of a coma alive. He has a terminal lung condition but had, unbeknownst to me, been sparring at his local martial arts centre. An opponent had served up a kick to his head which had seemed insignificant at the time. My fear was palpable. It was in the tight pounding of my heartbeat in my chest, the clamminess of my limbs, the shaking of my hands, the tears in my eyes. It was desperation. Times like these can make or break a person. When you cannot place your faith entirely in another human being, who do you turn to?
Begin following a religion or figure out why I don’t have set beliefs
My mother’s side of the family is Christian whilst my Dad’s side is Muslim. Most of the religious influence I’ve had comes from him as he practices. As I’ve grown older though, I haven’t taken on these practices for myself. The beliefs he holds were never automatically transferred to me because I’m my own person and one that is coming of age too. Religion is an incredibly personal expression and so heavily intertwined with identity that I know I’d lose myself if I didn’t stay true to my core. I’d say that I’m more of a spiritual person than anything else. I resonate deeply with the philosophies of Buddhism, enjoy biblical studies from which I share verses frequently and pray from the Quran in the Arabic tongue. I could never be an Atheist because the world is too big and unfathomable to have come from nothing. I have known miracles that come from no human being. I just don’t know where to focus my attention when my beliefs are so fragmented.
Receive a scholarship for my Diploma of Interior Design and Decoration college course
I’m pleased to say that I can tick this one off the list. In late December I applied for two scholarships in the Interior Design and Decoration course I’m taking. They were for ten and twenty percent off my course fee respectively, with the more significant scholarship offering additional perks. Two guided success sessions with an established Interior Designer, entrance into a private club and more. I was able to secure the education accessibility scholarship which is basically an addition to the fee help I’m receiving.
I found out last week as I was signing the updated letter of offer I’d been sent over. At that point, I felt a flare of my competitive streak. I’d submitted a portfolio of work, attached my resume and given detailed answers to the questions asked yet hadn’t emerged as victorious as I’d have liked to. It was a slight ego blow because my I put my heart and soul into creative work. It is my fuel and life blood so not being picked for the weightier scholarship was a blow. I’ll admit that I can hold somewhat of an all or nothing mentality which doesn’t always serve me. It can be hard to celebrate smaller wins when my attention is so focused on where I apparently fell short. Breaking this news to family and friends was also somewhat underwhelming, if I’m honest.
Build an everyday wellness routine incorporating regular reading and Law Of Attraction practice
I really fell off the wagon when it comes to regular reading time and dedicating myself to the Law of Attraction practice. I’ve seen so much personal growth and comeback from my investment in the habits and can’t imagine not carrying them into the future with me. When it comes to reading, I’ve always enjoyed a good horror story but now veer towards thrillers, philosophical reads and poetry collections. None of these have the least bit in common but pique my interest for different reasons. If I was to describe myself I’d say that I’m somewhat of a wordsmith, a creatively driven free spirit and deep thinker. I stray from what’s considered the norm and delve into worlds of mystery and conspiracy with my fiction books.
My poetry picks embrace the lighter side of life- Tess Guinery, Rupi Kaur and Morgan Harper Nichols have a captivating writing style. I’ve read three and a half books over the last month and a half, all of which were lengthy but utterly consuming. I Saw A Man by Owen Sheers, Never Saw It Coming by Linwood Barclay and Stolen Sisters by Louise Jensen. I picked my copies up from the local thrift store when I was at my grandma’s place in the Blue Mountains and was pleasantly surprised to realise that most are recent releases. The next few books I have my eye on are Storyteller by Morgan Harper Nichols and Homebody by Rupi Kaur.
As for the Law of Attraction practice, I’ll pop on a fifteen minute youtube clip that shares harmonious and uplifting affirmations. As cheesy and base level as they can seem, your subconscious is very perceptive and incredibly malleable. We must not forget to feed mind, body and soul as we achieve optimal wellness when all are in balance. I want to begin repeating back the affirmations so I internalise them and set a good rhythm for my day.
This was a beautiful post, Maryam. Thank you for sharing these lovely goals. You can most definitely accomplish them. I absolutely believe in you. 😊❤
I am so sorry for your struggles with wanting your body another way… I think many women and girls struggle with that.
But I am so glad you have come out of that and I’ll be praying that you continue to love your body for what God created it to be. 💕
Your relationship sounds sweet, and good for you two, making a long-distance relationship work so well!! That is something not many people succeed with, but it’s beautiful when it happens. Wonderful job, to both of you. ❤
I just wanted to say, if you ever have ANY questions about Christianity, just contact me and I’d love to try to answer any questions you have. It’s beautiful to place your faith in it, and I would love to share with you about it, or answer any questions you may have. 😊
Keep up the great work!! Pardon my long, rambling comment.
– Keziah ❤
Oh no, not at all! I love a good rambling comment. If you don’t know this already about me, a long chat is one of my favourite things! I’m so happy you’ve shared your thoughts. I’m sending you so much love and light. I definitely hope I’ll emerge next year having ticked off majority if not all of these goals! Perhaps I’ll stray from what I planned and do more or just pursue different goals. Body image struggles are definitely very relatable and I doubt there’s a person who can say with full confidence that they’ve never had an anxious thought about appearance or the way others perceive them. It’s been a long road to loving the girl I see in the mirror but I’m more myself than ever before! What could be more beautiful?
Thank you for your kind words as always. We do try our absolute best! Most situations in life are workable and it’s easier on us knowing that external circumstances are the reason we can’t meet just yet rather than there being personal limitations pertaining to opportunity, finances, health and the like! I know we’ll continue to plod ahead until we get some good news. I will definitely reach out if I have any faith based questions. That is such a lovely offer and I can promise I’ll take you up on it. Your love and dedication to Christianity is truly heartwarming and speaks volumes about you as a person. You inspire me. Thank you for being such a light! x
Yes, I absolutely agree. I think that everyone struggles differently with body image and all that… We just need to have compassion on those around us, as we all struggle and go through hard times.
Thank you so very much for your sweet words. I appreciate it so much. 💕
I couldn’t have said it better. The most kind and self aware thing we can do for others is to remember they are just like us, not without flaws but not without strengths either. We should seek to build others up and amplify all the good qualities they have! x
Yes, amen to that!! I absolutely agree. Great thoughts. 🙂 <3
My first relationship was an LDR which lasted 9 months. It took 8 years until I finally met him in person, and I insisted on meeting because I wanted some closure. I happened to be in his city at the time, which is how we ended up meeting. He is ghosting me now, and for reasons I do not know. In terms of LDRs, I can understand what you are going through. There are a lot of pros to long distance but also a lot of cons. I hope that you do get to meet him one day! ❤
In terms of body acceptance, I struggle with this too. I hate the way I look. One thing I did was quit IG for the time being until I can get my own life together. I am focusing on the important (mundane) things and doing my best to make progress in my own life, rather than view other people’s lives through a lens or filter. IG heightened my anxiety, and I don’t think it’s good for mental health. Some say it’s OK but personally, it had more cons than pros for me.
Oh, that’s very interesting. Long distance relationships definitely do have their unique struggles and benefits. Nine months is still a substantial period of time. My in person relationships have never surpassed three months although I was a fair bit younger at the time. Sometimes you just meet someone who really sees you and speaks to your heart and it’s just impossible to let go or picture a life without their influence. That’s how I felt when I met my partner. I have renewed love for him every day and that’s always been the hardest part. The longer we go without seeing each other, the more I have to give without him properly being able to receive it. I’m sorry to hear that you and your ex aren’t on good terms- I’m glad you were able to gain closure after the fact although I’m sure that was negated greatly by his ghosting you- perhaps he just couldn’t face reality and the strangeness of finally seeing someone who he’d been close to once? I can imagine it would be strange getting the one thing you once wished for most but not wanting it anymore.
I do enjoy social media and the influencer side of my work is all on those platforms. I find them to be a fairly positive place but I’ve had my share of negative and hurtful experiences. The other day I opened up an old Instagram account of mine only to receive a message from October 2018. This person’s words were so incredibly chilling and I was just lost for words. I’d never heard someone speak so violently and with intent to harm me for no reason. There was a very cold callousness in the tone of this message and it scared the living daylight out of me.
I wish you all the best!
Thank you very much Ariela! I hope you’re well x
I love reading your posts, Maryam! Your goals are so wholesome. I’m so proud of you for getting through so much doubts with your body and looks. I know how hard it can be sometimes to love yourself for who you are. Those images of celebrities and such that we aspire to look like are sooo heavily edited, and it’s impossible for anyone to look like that. You’re beautiful just as you are, Maryam. I hope you know that xx
Congrats on your scholarship! That’s awesome. I also enjoyed reading your story on how you met your partner, what a cool story! And with your spirituality journey, I hope you find the path that benefits you the most! It’ll take time, courage, and patience, but I hope you get there one day. Lots of love, friend ❤❤❤
Thank you sweet friend! I’m glad you found my goals wholesome and enjoyed the read. What are you aspiring to this year? It will always be a long journey to body acceptance but I know perspective changes with the seasons of life. One day I will focus more on the wonders of what my body can do and how much I’ve achieved because it’s enabled healthy, consistent functioning of my systems. Sometimes it helps to take things back to basics and remember that being alive and well is a major blessing! It is indeed very easy to present an inauthentic and heavily edited version of oneself to the world- and many people would be none the wiser. A good reminder to take some things in life with a grain of salt. Likewise- you are absolutely beautiful!
I appreciate your kind words of affirmation! Even a small scholarship helps immensely. I just need to learn how to appreciate small wins more and see them for what they are- a simple positive. I’m glad you were entertained by my stories and experiences also! I hope I can show people that lots is possible in life, even and especially through unexpected channels and avenues! x
I love your attitude, Maryam! It’s so positive and aspiring, I wish you all the best this year and forever ❤
This year, I hope to focus more on self love and self care, in addition to maintaining a healthy lifestyle and trying to be more open with loved ones. It’ll take time and courage, but I think I’ll be able to do it 🙂
Exactly! The best things in life are often the seemingly small ones anyhow, right? Love your goals, you’ll be able to accomplish them with this beautiful mindset xx
Sending you lots of love and light Wardah! I definitely have my share of up and down days but I try and keep my sight fixed on what’s truly important. To live happy, free and to make the days count, not count the days!
You and I have similar goals I see. I’m not surprised. Great minds think alike, hey? I do like a good old life refresh and upgrade every now and then. Helps me to remember where I see myself and how I’ll go about attaining that!
Love these goals! When I read the title of your blog – I was expecting more impersonal goals to be shared on here but it’s a pleasant surprise that you’ve shared such personal goals and given us an insight into your life as well as your relationship!
My goal this year too is accept my body too but work hard to be healthy in body and mind! You’re gorgeous! 🙂
Here is my take on religion – I am agnostic now but I was extremely religious while growing up – I’d bow my head at temples, churches, mosques, gurudwaras and wherever God was claimed to be. It changed with my experiences in life – understanding that religion is one more thing dividing mankind instead of bringing us together. My belief now is that since religion is man made, why choose one? Why not honour that there is something big and powerful out there – influencing our lives, something that we’ll never understand or be able to quantify and leave it at that. Pray to a higher power but not name it or make it yours. Hope you’re able to understand and affirm your beliefs this year. 🙂
Having been competitive all my life – I’d never take not being on top easily. But having outgrown that phase (slowly and painfully) – I think your only competition should be with yourself. Congratulations on your scholarship! It is a BIG feat! So proud of you. Good luck with your course and your goals for 2021! Shine on! <3
How kind of you! Thank you very much for reading love. I totally get that- goals can seem very impersonal and ordinary unless an explanation is offered, for one. Beyond that, surely we aspire to do more than just continue exercising, drinking water and journalling each year! I’ve committed to always being truthful and authentic in what I share on this blog. I want to be appreciated for who I am and to have my story out there. This is me in my entirety. I hope you felt inspired and found my musings thoughtful! x
So sweet as always. I appreciate you! I know that religion can be a very taboo topic but there’s always a way to touch on these topics gently and respectfully without butting heads with anyone. That starts with not making any personal attacks or demonising a particular religion. There’s nothing wrong with sharing your beliefs and experience though! I very much understand your point of view. Religion is something very glorified in society as it’s seen as the ultimate finding of way in one’s life. It’s tied in closely with coming of age and becoming one’s own independent person. What people don’t realise is that you can have a very unhealthy and dependant relationship on a higher power if you rest everything on that. Religion is too frequently used a crutch, as a way of coping. In that way it’s not all that different to unhealthy ways of numbing oneself to the world. Religion should be invigorating and life giving but it cannot be as such if used in a way unintended by the creator. It’s a very personal and unique experience where no two people will offer the same beliefs. Ultimately, everyone has areas where they pick and choose what makes sense to them. Until I reach that point of deep knowing and recognition of God, I’ll continue as I am.
Beautifully said as always! The only real competition is with the person you were the previous day, month, year and so on. If we’ve outgrown our old self, we’re automatically moving forward! What are your goals for this year? x
Love how much thought you put into your replies! You are an amazing writer!
I’m impressed with your understanding of religious beliefs at such a young age. 🙂
My only goal for this year – is to grow every day even if its only a little but just push myself to do a little better everyday! <3
Thank you! I try my very best to be thoughtful and give in depth replies rather than brush the surface and sound impersonal!
I’ve had an interesting religious upbringing in that it hasn’t been consistent or particularly affected my views but it’s still been loud and in my face. When my dad gets on a roll about religion, he goes all out and doesn’t stop talking for hours. He can definitely be very pushy. Still, I don’t find myself particularly swayed a certain way.
Congrats on the scholarship… & may God bless your search for the truth…
Thank you very much Janis! Your kind words are much appreciated x
I cannot begin to tell you how much your writing moves me, and I felt such deep emotion while reading this post, that I have to tell you that I have so much love for you. We have not met, nor have we had a full conversation, but I cannot help but feel connected to you through your writing, and although we are in many ways different, we have had similar experiences, and I feel we write in a similar tongue of the universe.
I am sorry about your experiences with eating disorders, and of having so much worry for your partner. And I’m also so, so glad that you are better now, and that the two of you share such a deep, transcendent bond.
I’ve always admired your writing, but in this post I feel like I could see your soul being reflected in your sentences, your pauses, your reflections.
All the best for these hopes and dreams for the new year!
“You’ll have more than one soulmate in life, for there are different ones for different things. There are musical taste soulmates, friend soulmates, let’s get coffee together everyday soulmates, artist soulmates and so on. The romantic soulmate is only one aspect of this notion- never forget that.”
How powerful is the experience of knowing somebody who resonates with you to the core, who gets the depth of your work, reads between the lines and draws reflections on things you hadn’t been able to articulate? You’re like my philosophical big sister in this sweet and loving blogging community of ours and I couldn’t be happier. We definitely need to have more conversations and get to know each other beyond small talk- and start that collaboration of course. Your musings never fail to move me and always inspire deeper thought. They evoke nostalgia for the past and a beautiful vibrant hope for the future. What more could I ask for? You are truly an artist and friend soulmate.
What are your dreams and hopes for this year? Sending you so much love and light Arshia x
This post was so inspirational. The word determination was probably one of the best words to choose for entering into 2021. Good luck with accomplishing all your goals this year, you’ve got this!!
Thank you Ashlyn! Ah yes, determination. I’m not going to set out this year with the mindset that college and life approaching adulthood is easy but I know I’ll make the best of it and persevere. I owe it to the girl in the mirror to show up as my best, highest and happiest self. What goals have you committed to this year? x
I love this post Maryam! Your goals are so inspirational and I’m so happy that you got the scholarship! I’m so proud of you for overcoming your struggles with your body too. You’re gorgeous the way you are! 🤍
Thank you Francine! I so appreciate your kind words of affirmation. Your sweet words never fail to move me. It’s been a long road to recognising the girl in the mirror but I can only learn more about myself each and every day. What are your goals for this year? x
Nice blog
Maryam, first of all i must apologise for not writing back to you the email that you took time out for. Really! As i read it after many days of your sending it to me. It had gone into my spam and thus reason. So please continue smiling on me as you have always done.
The most intriguing aspect of your goals that i have found is that your upbringing has been very earthly, realistic, and filled with beauty and experiences that have shaped your career choices.
Now particularly today when you mentioned about your parents and your understanding and interest on religion, I felt like writing rather sharing with you something all what i have learnt and experienced from my experiences, also being a Yogi more than anything else.
You know we do identify with the ideas we have grown up seeing around us, or intrigued by, we must keep exploring them further, because there lies our comfort, but the most important and worthy of our attention lies in knowing our breath, and breath to me is the only religion of body which makes you meet the mind. Understanding it leads to many discoveries of our own self in connection with the supreme and the five elements of nature. Maryam, i feel you must be reading this with intrigue as much. And i hope you find your root in it some day too, in the sound of the universe. The sound of breath.
Nara x
Thank you for all your support as always Nara. That’s not a problem at all- I completely understand. Likewise though, my apologies for not getting back to you earlier. I’ve been working my way through tasks for the last little while and have had to prioritise. My cup is never truly filled when I’m absent from my creative work though. It is what has made and sustains me.
You are absolutely right- I’ve sat here reading your words with and it’s been intriguing. You are very thoughtful, always tapping into new perspectives. My upbringing has been many things, yes. Raw is a word I’d use as well. At times it’s broken me open but I’ve grown in my capacity for empathy, understanding and realism. The good and bad times have clarified so much for me. Religion is something I hold close to me. I believe in a God but still can’t place my faith entirely in one set religion. I much prefer to be my own creator. I can affect change in my life but I am not all wise or knowing. Quite the opposite. As long as I’m in this human skin I will continue to be fragile and elusive. It is indeed a great source of comfort to hold tight to what we’ve always known but an adventure in knowing ourselves when we pursue what is new but tugs at us with a passion and intensity x